It’s been a little over a month, but it feels like ages ago. Lots has happened since my last post, most of which was either unpleasant or unnecessary, or both. My thoughts as the New Year countdown was underway were Yes, 2011 will be better…I mean it must be, right? Two days in the new year I’m already a little pissed at nothing in particular and thinking This year had better be good! And then I hear myself answer…or what?
The New Year. An overrated, over-celebrated, and subconsciously imposed social construct and marketing goldmine.
So it’s 00:00:01 into 2011…how are you any different? Better yet, how am I any different? Think about the “wishes” and “hopes” that we contrive for ourselves for every new year that comes our way. If you look a little closer you will discover that the changes we seek are not so much within ourselves but all around us. We want the world to change, so we may enjoy it better, as if it’s easier to change everything else but our own selfish ways. We lie to ourselves about everything else, so why not this too?
Sure there are some new year’s resolutions that supposedly have to do with “the self” such as quitting smoking or losing a few pounds (mostly because we’ve gained some over the holidays), but where’s the change? The improvement of “the self”? Who knows? I think this unwillingness to change is mostly a derivative of the conviction that “we’re not that bad” to begin with. We want more money, a better job, and the all-time-classic “to be happier”, but we expect those things to magically appear while we sit around doing nothing different. And we feel certain that we deserve all those things, while we feel envious and sometimes even angry at people who already have some or all of them (regardless of how they got there). Because it’s not the process we’re concerned about, but the end result, and we wish to get there as quickly and as painlessly as possible.
Well, la di da, as my philosophy teacher used to say. So if I’m so clever and have figured everything out (which of course I have not), what are we to do? First of all, I don’t pretend to know anything, and always try to include myself in every “human” critique I make. Most of these thoughts I write so that I may remind myself of what’s important and what it is that I myself should be doing to achieve what I truly want. So my suggestion is we stop looking at other people and take a good look at ourselves (cliches are inescapable after all). Because at the end of the day we will have to answer to ourselves about what we did, what we didn’t do, but, most importantly, what we weren’t able to do.